From Doubt to Discovery: Preparing for Upcoming Shows (SNEAK PEEKS)
Relocating from Portland, Oregon to Astoria, Oregon on the North Coast where the force of the Columbia River meets the Pacific Ocean has been a big life change. Admittedly, I love the storminess of this part of the state and my work often references meteorology, climate, and geology. I can watch the storms land ashore from the constant horizon line surrounding me. Observing weather patterns and the greater connection to wild nature aligns with my creative practice, inviting me to focus. Now, as Winter makes way for Spring, the recent solar eclipse has ignited a surge of creativity that will catapult me to the completion of these twenty new works for my upcoming exhibition.
This particular body of work was begun on May 3, 2020. We all know where we were at then and these works carried me through that time. It was a project I started to stay focused on despite enormous uncertainty in complete isolation with my ailing dog Cleo and cat Rothko. I had this vision of twenty pieces inspired by a 2017 series of 51” x 46” glacier-related pieces I had scaled down to 14” x 11”. As these works began their evolution of progression, I experienced the devastating losses of both my pup Cleo in 2020 and my father in 2021. In 2022, I had to set the twenty pieces aside to produce two commissions and three solo exhibitions for Seattle, New York, and Astoria all opened within four months of each other. Then I moved to Astoria, set up a working studio in my basement, and began again. Yeah, a-LOT right? Looking back, I am amazed at the resilience I somehow mustered to meet these losses, challenges, and life changes.
All of this change in my life has allowed feelings of uneasiness and imposter syndrome to creep in as I prepare for upcoming shows and exhibitions. The upheaval and enormous amount of work involved with the move took such a toll on me that I didn’t feel like I was an artist anymore. I didn’t think I’d find my flow again, I allowed distractions to get in the way of my growth. Having moved past all the noise of self-sabotaging derailments and doubts, I can see my work evolving in new and exciting ways. A coalescence needs to occur and trusting that it will come is the key to any successful artistic practice but not always easy to remember! The process of creating art is dynamic, and as an artist, I constantly challenge myself and experiment. Evolution is an essential part of my artistic practice, allowing me to grow and develop.
The title of the show Navigating Place reflects its starting point and its evolution leading to the present moment. Words can hold so many meanings and references both personally and creatively. Art knows no words but, being a bit of a writer, I found it essential to begin another “process” journal for this body of work as I create them. Navigating and Place, these words pertain to experiencing the work and to me personally. This is a very meaningful body of work and encompasses the vast arsenal of techniques and approaches that I have taken with my work over the past few decades. There is more of an emphasis on oil painting over the relief surface of the wax texture which results in more depth and transparency.
Navigating Place, holds a special significance for me. It represents more than just physical spaces. It captures the emotions of life changes and the deepening of my painting practice. Throughout all the challenging, triumphant, and tumultuous passages that life has laid in my path, my art has prevailed. The longevity of my art career is now extending its hand to me to look back at all approaches to my practice and hand pick from a vast arsenal of self-reference in my work that I am now stepping into. This is the longest I have taken to complete a body of work. The slowness of the process allowed for these pieces to be obsessively detailed, creating landscapes within landscapes. Through the merging of techniques, textures, and personal experiences, I visually aspire to evoke a sense of both wonder and wander. I liken the four-year process of their making to my rebirth and reinvention.
As an artist, I am constantly exploring new territories, both within myself and in the external world. The surface or terrains of the wax that the oil paint reveals, have me traveling down various "mindscapes" transporting me in their making to a realm where the tangible and intangible intertwine, and where the beauty of the natural world converges with the vast landscapes that not only reside in my immediate surroundings, but within us all. This exploration of place, whether it be physical, emotional, or conceptual, informs my artistic expression and adds to my work. Life has navigated me here to this moment and this place to do the work and continue making what I want to make. This is what Navigating Place means for me and I hope to see you at my opening!
The first order of business in the newly set up studio was to get the twenty pieces onto the wall to just look at each with a fresh eye and how they correlate in an entirely new place and surroundings. Now, a year later, I am working on this first body of work in the new space. I’ve settled into the studio and it has taken on an inviting sanctuary feeling to it that I love. It became clear that each piece had to sing its song, they all had one thing in common; the abstract landscape making a comeback onto my picture plane. More detail and attention in these particular pieces went to oil painting over an encaustic relief texture something I began doing in the 1990’s. Using alkyd mediums and basic fat over lean oil painting techniques allowed me to build several glaze layers of oil paint on top of the wax.
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